"The grieving process and the tears you shed come from moving from one perceived identity into another ... Someone without H to someone with H. The reason why it rains is because there's a high pressure system and a low pressure system. You're moving from one system to another, and hence, there is rain. You're changing. And not for the worst. You're moving deeper into yourself."
There is a sweetness to the vulnerability that is showing up in you right now. In this grief. There's a sweetness in being with yourself in such a deep way. Holding all of it — the intensity, the sadness, the fear, the tears — in a non-judgmental way. As shitty as this process can feel sometimes, it's leverage for taking you more deeply into yourself. How exquisitely can you hold yourself with unconditional love as you move from one identity to another? Avoid the tendency of rushing through the grieving process. You might be missing some powerful experiences during this very tender, special time.